Dream Catcher

Another Poem

2005-04-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

This is a poem...

I was trying to figure out how I could fix things, but I cant you wouldn't want me 2 anyway, so I guess I'll just have to stop loving you somehow and only love the memory of me actually thinking you cared I shouldnt waste my tears, I know Its kinda too late to say that I've already unleashed thousands, because every thought I ever had was bout you and every dream I ever wished came true-when u entered my life and now ur slowly disappearing, so I didn't sleep last night

My new Life..

2005-04-16T14:10:00.000-07:00

My new life..im sorry to say..but i am over Mr.Clean..he is still in my heart..and will be forever..but now i have lost the feeling for him inside. Now there is Bugs Bunny..I have asked bugs bunny out..but..sadley they said no.I am ok with this...now we are great friends.But im sorry to say that i want more..when i see him in the hall way..i go through the nearest exit..hoping he hasn't seen me.I hope this because in my heart i no..that he will look at me with hatred in his eyes. When i see him at recess..im too scared to wave..or even smile a hello...im too scared that he will say to his friends.."how pathetic"..when i am all alone thinking that he wil come up to me and hold my hand..and i trun around and hes not there...i feel so lonley and sad..so sad i feel like im going to cry..in class..i do look at him..but he doesn't even know what i look like.I bet you he has never seen my face.He doesn't make eye contact..but thats ok..b/c i hope somewhere down in his heart..he knows that im hurt.I still like him very much.But i get mad at him very easy.When i found out he thought some-one was hot..i never wanted to like him.B/c he thought a popular person was hot..he would never go for some-one unpopular.This made me feel very bad.I was mad..and than i thought that..my friends have always been there for me..so he myaswell be my friend.But i like him too much to change that.here i am..waiting for him to realize whats right infront of him.Who has so much in common with him,who wishes to be with him,who is hurt from him...ME...anywho..i better go..ttfn

Quote

2005-03-24T16:55:00.000-08:00

My quote is
To the world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world.
-Darin

The funny things that have happened!

2005-03-20T11:49:00.000-08:00

Well there are alot of funny things that have happened. These are my top ten..
1)Sarah and i were in a lake..with our jeans..she said ha im more wet..i said really? i rolled my jeans down and walked in..it was in october so it was really cold!SO FUNNY!:)
2)Joey told me to look something up on the internet..and i couldn't think of anything so i told him to give me an example..he told me to look up hot men..of course being the blonde i am..i did..and i click a button and saved it as my homepage..and i couldn't change it!:)
3)Grace and I were skiing and I lost my ski on the adventure course..we found it and then Grace lost hers..then some orange haired kid was pushing it down teh hill saying look at it go.. :)
4)Rebecca and I were in a hot tub with a bunch of ppl...in the winter ,.....the Grown ups said its time to pla chinese fire drill..we only hear the instructions you have to run around..and Rebecca being a big Blonde..ran around thier cottage..then later we found out you just run around the hot tub:)
5)Britt and I were staying up late one night..and we looked out my window and saw a mad and his wife and their dog going to their mailbox..what he got out of his mail box..was ...was a pie!:) we laughed so hard we almost peed our pants!:)
6)Ashley knew that i was feeling sad..so she told me her dream..I was a war leader..and i went onto a table and crunched into a lil ball...it was really funny..:)
7)Julee and I were swimming, and I had company..two boys..I did a fancy dive and well..my bottoms fell off..i was so embaressed but i laughed:)
8)Yea this is a sad funny thing..every guy i like..people all strt likeing him..think about how mad i get!
9)in class we were all sitting together..and Brandon(sped) came up..we were tlaking about snowblowers..(the dirty way) and brandon was like i like snow blowers they blow the drive way! we laughed so hard:)
10)the funiest thing is..my life..its sad..:(

A Poem

2005-03-19T06:56:00.000-08:00

This is just a poem,it doesn't mean anything and isn't deadicated to anyone!

You broke my heart and made me cry,

You made me wish that I could die,

To see you left me for that girl,

Its all because she does that twirl,

She wears tight pants to look cool,

Yet all she does is fail in school.

Im a city girl, with a cow girls heart,

I wish we could go back to the start,

In my heart there is a cross,

It says there is little loss,

But there is and it causes great pain,

Please dont make me go insane.

When Im with you my stomach turns,

They said watch as she learns,

Watch as he hurts her bad,

And then she becomes real sad,

They were right and I was wrong,

I've moved on a wrote a song.

Good-Bye

*giggling in the distance*

Im conffuzled

2005-03-16T14:06:00.000-08:00

Im cunfused. I like Mr.Clean so much, but I dont think he likes me back. Now i've been having dreams of bugs bunny(****). That bugs is the perfect boyfriend. And lately it seems like he likes me too. Im so cunfused. Should i stay with the one I like? Or go with the new one who may like me? I hope Mr.Clean reads this. To let him know that im in a pickle and need to talk to him.
*scribbling on paper*

How I feel in the inside

2005-03-09T13:37:00.002-08:00

When it may look like im having a ball, or laughing so hard i'll pee my pants, you are wrong. Under all my smiles and all my laughter, is a girl who is sad,she is sad because she has been deserted by the one she loves...the Lord. The lord has deserted her because when she needs the most faith and hope..it failes to come forward. When ever she needs a friend or needs a hug, no ones there. When ever she prays for strenght or hope, she never gets it. When she reads the poem foosteps..she thinks of how it replies to her..but the lord doesn't carry her. She has a ton of friends, but she feels that they're not there. When she goes home, she feels like she doesn't belong,like she was put there by acident. When she goes to school, she looks happy, like she is laughing,but she's scared. Scared that something will happen, or someone will die.Sad, shes sad because the person she loves doesn't know shes even there. Mad,shes mad because people out there are abuseing their powers in the world. Shy, shes shy because she is afraid that no one will like her. Embaressed, she is embaresses because what is she trips or falls or says the wrong thing. At night she prays.Prays that she will fit in one day. One day where she'll never be afraid of who she is, one day where she will let go of all of the bad feelings and only leave confident,happy,joy,faith,hope and love. Maybe one day that day will come.
*skipping in the distance*

My Crush

2005-03-06T14:42:00.000-08:00

I have a crush on a guy name ****, he must be called Mr.Clean so he doesn't become embaressed. Well, i dont just like Mr.Clean...I really like him...100%, and lately i am confused..bcuz he'll flirt and then look like hes not interested.All my friends think he is soo sweet and kind and baby cute. He is my best friends best friend. Everyone is saying that he likes my other best friend..I hope its not true. Before i go to sleep, I write lots of poems, the poems are to him. On my floor, it is covered with them. I wish he knew i like him, not just like..like like. Mr.Clean gets beaten up alot, by the otehr guys in my class for being smaller and less popular. MR.Clean is popular, he hangs with lots of lil kids :) lol. I hope one day he reads this, and relizes that there is someone out there, who has always been there, and always cared, and always been around the corner, if he needed a friend to hug. SO this is to you Mr.Clean....Cheers....*walking in the distance*