My new Life..

My new life..im sorry to say..but i am over Mr.Clean..he is still in my heart..and will be forever..but now i have lost the feeling for him inside. Now there is Bugs Bunny..I have asked bugs bunny out..but..sadley they said no.I am ok with this...now we are great friends.But im sorry to say that i want more..when i see him in the hall way..i go through the nearest exit..hoping he hasn't seen me.I hope this because in my heart i no..that he will look at me with hatred in his eyes. When i see him at recess..im too scared to wave..or even smile a hello...im too scared that he will say to his friends.."how pathetic"..when i am all alone thinking that he wil come up to me and hold my hand..and i trun around and hes not there...i feel so lonley and sad..so sad i feel like im going to cry..in class..i do look at him..but he doesn't even know what i look like.I bet you he has never seen my face.He doesn't make eye contact..but thats ok..b/c i hope somewhere down in his heart..he knows that im hurt.I still like him very much.But i get mad at him very easy.When i found out he thought some-one was hot..i never wanted to like him.B/c he thought a popular person was hot..he would never go for some-one unpopular.This made me feel very bad.I was mad..and than i thought that..my friends have always been there for me..so he myaswell be my friend.But i like him too much to change that.here i am..waiting for him to realize whats right infront of him.Who has so much in common with him,who wishes to be with him,who is hurt from him...ME...anywho..i better go..ttfn